Translate

martes, 28 de enero de 2014

There are some moments of feelings and sensations...



6:41 am 11/07/2012

I got up at 5:30 am so sleepy since the last night I went to the bed around midnight. Due to the argument  

I had with a friend , I got the idea about  if I lose one more friend, what should happen, if I told him the truth? what should happen, if I need to say all that has occurred, must I be sincere?! Just when it's worth  I am sincere , I don't want cheat anybody, I want all things could be different every day .

Today … …when I got up I felt at peace with myself  because this happiness I was waiting for is finally coming  I like to feel when I'm breathing , feeling that I must adopt better attitudes.

I had to present PRE ICFES test so I felt so anxious. When arrived to the classroom I noticed I was the third person coming   in spite of  I walked very slow from home to the college. What a surprise! It was 6:56 am, I was turning my pen on my table while the lady who guided the test was next to the board doing anything  . All was crazy I wanted to sleep but I had resolve the test .Let's see how it will goes from here to 10:30 am …

…I got bored with the topics that I didn't understand  however, in the second part of the test I felt very well!

What made me happy? I set down commode , I achieved the happiness today, told the truth, few lies and personal inventions afflict me, I walk slow though the others are in hurry.

I realized that I am happy when I have the company of my friends, when the people smile, when I listen to the music that I like, when I draw, when I read and even now writing._

I become anxious when I ponder in the space-time but more worries me is this part to which we call the future (MY FUTURE), when I do not have patience and when I eat much candy.

I calm down thinking about the persons that I want, these persons who have made something sowed in my, I calm down when I see and feel the solutions to the problems,  when I see the problems solved is more gratifying , when I start doing something that i wanted to do does very much.

I get depressed analyzing the situation of some problems that flood the world, I get depressed when the persons that I consider to be valuable in my life act sometimes as if I maybe was unimportant for them ,but i worry much more when YOUR OWN LIFE is unimportant for them.
I feel sad when I feel that maybe I am not doing very much with my life. I put me badly when i feel  impotent .The disappointment comes when you do something for someone or some and they aren't grateful with your acts.

The fury burst into my when  they don't estimate neither my effort nor my work, when they ignore what is just and reasonable, when I do not achieve it in the process of coming to the planned goal yet . I feel furious where the SUPPORT is ILLUSORY or APPARENT EVEN NULL.

9:14 PM end of the binnacle.

Mayra A (2) Z. malekandraL’école.